Woman of my Soul, Always Hypnotizing

Ive been through it all. Ups, downs, and all arounds.

Ive never felt this strongly about someone before but I guess there is a first time for everything, including anger. You no longer hurt me with your actions. You only prove to me why you are not worth my time and energy anymore.

Best of luck. I sincerely wish you have an accomplished life and you dont regret anything because at this time I dont. Live it. Love it. Get some.

Santa Anas

The wind blows hard today from the desert east of San Diego county. The offshore winds created some wonderful surfing conditions this morning at a beach that will go unnamed. As the temperature rises, I sit here listening to a wonderfully real band and considering my future. I know what my current is and I enjoy it for the most part. I feel as though my current position in San Diego is coming to an end, as the wind blows in feelings of change. I love being in this most Southwestern United States county, but I miss the grandeur that was and is the Central Coast of California. Everyone tells me that it will be there when I come back, and I understand that, without a doubt. But who is to say that I will. I want to be back in that big country. For instances, Big Sur hosts a mountain peak that rises 5,000+ feet within three miles f the Pacific ocean. Can it get much bigger?

I miss the people too. I will admit that I felt comfortable in the Central Coast area. This is not the only reason I want to move to this pristine landscape that is Monterey County. The history there is beautiful and filled with people that captured the history in writing, so beautifully at that.The coastline is stunning. The sunsets are mesmerizing. The close by towns and cities are eclectic and fun. San Diego has Mexico and a cool amount of towns throughout, but they are not as welcoming as I feel Monterey County is.

Also, I miss the wonderful business that I was working for before I moved to the corporate idea. The company was new and upcoming. In this year alone, I have seen amazing leaps and bounds and I wish, that for this past year I had been a part of this company, making waves in the large, and largely held by a few companies, hospitality industry. Just like AirBNB, I want to make those waves that mess with those large corporations. It makes them wince. It makes them scramble for answers, and I believe that is pleasurable. When something that has been held in regard for years and has been untouched is finally pushed off balance. How fun to watch the most powerful and rich trip and stumble.

This is my take, I am interested in making a move. I am making moves, waves, ripples. It doesn't matter how big, as long as it is in a direction I feel is right. 

There is no wind

It's metaphorical, the wind that blows.  It cannot be measured in knots or mph. It is not measurable. Only in feeling. We know that times change as does your skin and your ideas. But again time is just a measure. Feelings are measurable by descriptors; ie, sad, hot, angry, just go with the flow. Love life. Be someone you would be proud to know and enjoy what you do. 

Late November

11/28/13
I must say for the majority of the year I was looking forward to Thursday, November 28, 2013. Well the day comes and the feelings towards it dwindle. No family close by, a day at work, no woman. But then I look to the sun and realize I'm not here to rely on other people. I'm on this floating rock alone. Yes, maybe people love me but in reality how is it that I'm supposed to live a fulfilling life unless I do it myself. That's what everyone else has done in the past and will do in the future. Today, I have no regrets. Today, I will not sink into a drunken despair.  Today, I am strong and thankful for the people that choose to be in my life. I am happy that I have a chance at a future i can be proud of and that I am still young enough to make all my dreams a reality. Thanksgiving is a time to give thanks. What I am thankful for is the strength I have found in myself to persevere, even through the toughest most downtrodden times.

11/10/14
Right on past Thomas. One thing that you failed to mention in this past post was that the week before you had an amazing thanksgiving dinner with friends and family. We had a potluck thanksgiving, at your house, and it was a great success, leading to a concert of The Green at the Catalyst with some of the best people ever. Just remember that even though that date, November 28th 2013, was spent alone, you actually had one of the most amazing thanksgivings with some of the best people in the world. Count your blessings, not your sad times dude

Blowing smoke

I have stumbled upon you once again. It isn't a coincidence and that's what makes it so meaningful. The lawful allowance of activities is praised and sweet. No expectations of how it would make me feel. But it did not change my feelings. It's not the cool thing to do or be, it just is a thing that makes me happy. Well looks like I'm lucky. I found it early. Gunja

Chicago

This place is amazing. I love the city. The boutique shops, the people, the buildings. Ill be back lovely.

Me

The wind that blows in from the ocean is attached in many ways to the movement of life, laughter, energy, and thought. My mind sways as if something had given it room to move. I mask the mirror image with the swift disappearance of my mental state. These lost thoughts, past participle involvement that can never touch or be heard. Why mustn't we take on such power? What language can we use to decipher the vision and purpose of others? There is none and it has not be created. Living in a silent world because of the lack of malignant life. Move forward, and side to side, as if you were the breeze coming off the ocean.